null-jordan

May 12, Friday. This message is primarily for Ray, but our watchers have a right to know. I'm sorry, but I won't be coming home tonight. And Rusty won't be coming home with you either. I've changed the account password and not given it to anyone else. This will be my last post. It's a shame it has to end this way but it has. And... I'm sorry. To you, Ray, and to Trevor. And to Mom and Dad. This post is my confession. If they come to your door show this to them. Don't try to look for me because by then I'll already be gone. I was not myself today. I was Null. He was trying to protect me by keeping my emotional brain from blowing up even wo

Two entries in one day. Too bad I don't have good news. I saw something I'd have rather not seen tonight. But Null was in control and I could do nothing but see it as it unfolded. Unfortunately, Null must have been just as frozen as I was because he did NOTHING! He did nothing to stop what was going on and I don't know what the heck was wrong with him! Granted we saw the end of it but I still saw something that made me sick. I heard what sounded like a scuffle around the corner, around the back of one of the buildings. Null seized me and he walked around the corner and we both saw what was happening. Stitch and Two-Face were in a fight, an

May 11. Thursday. Hello. I came back. maybe a little late for iot but... i guess I never left. I didb't post but he sure did. You wouldn't believe what's been going on in my head lately. its like now that I know he's there I can hear him when he gets into my thoguhts. it doesn't sound like another voice either, but the way i think changes. I'll be thinking normally and then bang! Remember how much you wanted to beat up Andrew that one time? he should pay for that. I mean normally I'd think that was a personal vendetta sort of thing but i know it came from him because that incident was last semester and i dibt' think i held a gudge. And i'm

May 10. Wednesday. Why did this have to happen? Why did she decide to go out? I should have gotten on yesterday. Then maybe someone would have warned her. They found Marlee's body this morning some feet from the bench with her legs broken, her mouth taped shut and her throat cut open. And we all know who sent a note to meet her there at midnight. I didn't see Rusty in class either, so before lunch I went straight up to his room and asked to talk. He didn't answer so I tried the door. It was unlocked. I ended up finding him hiding in his closet. In front of him was that gray jacket and those gloves he wears as Two-Face. They had blood on th

May 8, Monday. Whew. Last Monday of the semester. I have to admit it feels pretty good! Then maybe I can go back to a normal life. All of us can just... be normal guys again. Can anyone really blame me for feeling like this is kind of my fault? Or Null's fault, anyway. I don't know, it just seems like he showed up when all the weird stuff started happening. If it weren't for me I don't think my brother would have gotten involved with this to the extent that he has. Remember when I told you he had something to tell me? He told me this weekend. Boy, was it something to tell me. I think you'll recall how he took down Spooky in Journal Entry

may 3, wednesday. just got back from work, thought i'd write about what happened to me last night. i'm fairly certain I had an encounter with dark heart last night. i was in bed, actually dozing off for once, with the light off, but with one ear open. i'm a light dozer. anyway, i heard what sounded like someone moving around in the room. i assumed it was rusty making his midnight sandwich or something, but when i opened my eyes to look, the desk lamp was off and it was actually really dark in the room. i can't imagine anyone making a sandwich in that sort of darkness. but i saw in what dim light there was someone moving around in the room,

May 1, Monday. I'm tired. Really tired. Even after the weekend, I'm still deathly tired. I don't even know what to write today. I've felt more out of it than anything as it is today. How am I supposed to survive this week? There's finals. Of course finals aren't really what's on my mind the most lately. It's mostly been my own sanity, I think. Null is pretty much a constant presence in my mind now. He sounds like me but not, you know? It scares me, it really does. I'm not sure I should worry too much because Null hasn't done anything to hurt us, but it's unnerving and kind of scary to have another voice in your head who occasionally does t

April 27, Thursday. Honestly I should be working on my final projects but it's been really quiet around here lately, so I figured I should give an update. I also have no class tomorrow with it being Friday. Well, I've actually been doing a slight bit better. I'm still unable to fall asleep for some reason on a lot of nights, so I'm pretty tired, but at least I can tell people it's because of finals. Finals probably have something to do with my stress level, as I'm trying to move on. Speaking of moving on, I'm sure we can agree that we'll miss having Rusty on board for this. Yeah, he's still hanging out with us and all, but it looks like he

April 21. friday. Hey everuone, its Rusty. I'm sorry to say this cause I know you'll miss me, but i'm not going to be part of null-jordan anymore. I just canh't handle it anymore. Plus all this stuff with me... or me in that mask ,anyway. Its pulling me down into a dark place. I guess now is a time better than ever to reveral everything. i know most people don't know this about me because I'm such an optimistic guy, but when i was in high school, I struggled a ;ot with depression. Having an alcoholic dad who wasn't around and a mom who diob't know what to do with me or my sister didn't really help with that. I had a mentor helping me throu